jake1209

Wednesday already? Not complaining by any means.

Just seems like time goes too fast these days. I wish I had more time to slow down and spend more time with friends and family. More time at home, but more time away as well. I guess it's probably a product of my lonliness, which comes and goes also. Self discovery is an interesting process, but a process none the less.

I want to become an expert in my field, but it's so expansive. I can't imagine spending my days doing something that I don't feel 100% adequate at. For having a profession, I don't feel like a professional at it. But I want to be, and I think it's that willingness to become the best at what I do that leads me to believe I've found something I can be happy doing. It already makes me happy to know that I provide a place for people to work and to support their families. I never dreamed of having that role in peoples' lives. As a provider. Sure, they could work anywhere, but they work to help me with my efforts. Kind of fulfilling to me. More than kind of, it's thoroughly fulfilling.

Huh, don't know what made that stream of conciousness come about. But there you have it.