jake1209

Well, day number five on the old lexapro. Gladly it seems to be taking some effect. I feel good, better than I have in a long time. So much so that my job was actually not like having my teeth pulled today. I really should give this job a fair shake before jumping ship after 90 days. But then again this is just today, and today's been good. One good day in a month is not the ratio I would like to have. But maybe once my depression funk is lifted I'll see things more clearly. Also with less depression will come more energy to finish my house. That would be a dream come true to come home to my dog in a finished house. prepare a meal in a finished kitchen, sleep in a finished bedroom, shower in a...you get the picture.

One other nice feeling I'm experiencing for the first time in ages is not needing someone around. What I mean is that in spite of how much I've been missing my ex and stressing over not having a girlfriend, I'm not feeling like I *need* that. Yeah that would be nice, but i'm not stressing it. In this time of money crunching it's actually nice. I'd love to have someone to entertain, but I also need to pinch my pennies.

Time to take small steps to get my house in order, and just concentrate on me. I'm so lucky to have such good friends. It amazes me how much they care sometimes.