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I've been looking into a few different graduate courses. For some reason, I am having reservations about going back to school. On one hand, I desperately want to go back. I genuinely enjoy academia, and the interactions that spring from a classroom environment. I want to further my education and achieve a higher degree, if only for a sense of accomplishment. I feel that going back to school would also apply some pressure on choosing a career path, as if there isn't enough pressure going on in my life right now. I feel like these are the positive reasons.

On the down side, school is very expensive. It's been three years since getting my BA, and it's been nothing but dead-end, blue-collar work, all to pay off the student loans that I already owe. The ironic thing is that a lot of that student loan money went to buying alcohol and pizza, which is not very much fun to think about. It has also been three years since I've been in a academic classroom setting, and that's a little intimidating. I realize that a Master's will take a lot of time, effort, and money.

I want to do this. And, I also know that I can do this. If only I can get over this general malaise and jaded apathy that has overrun my young adult life. I have to keep pushing to prove the naysayers wrong. I have to push because I owe it to myself.