WE TALK about allowances until late but don't get far with it - it's left unresolved when we go to bed - we have to travel the following day but feel better…M apologises for spoiling the evening…I say, we have to revisit those areas and that we had a good time on the sofa (mouth to pussy resuscitation) - so what are the options?
OPTION 1) total abstinence from external sources including SGs :-( but M still maintains contact with friends and family (as do I of course though that sadly counts for little) - S would be part of the deal despite my (unreasonable) problems with him.
OPTION 2) controlled access to agreed and non-contentious areas of interaction that cause no reasonable harm that cannot be absorbed and cause no reasonable hurt - SGs and some online flirting(?), badminton with B(?)
OPTION 3) balanced access to non-curricular activities so that flirting, fingering and fucking are distributed with an agreed evenness provided both parties are able to be open and accept the other'a activities - external correspondents/participants to be agreed.
OPTION 4) a free-for-all in which whatever falls our way is acceptable and beyond contention - openness is essential within reason.
THOUGHTS ON THE ABOVE
The latter is an ideal but is precarious and laden with the possibility/likelihood of disaster…one of us (M) is going to get more and the other (me) is going to get less (none) and end up bottling it - game over - but it is the modern option, bound for disaster but the stuff of narrative - M would return to P or others and I would get…?…B, L, C, S, S…some tattooed gym chick, woman in the pub (or, no-one) - she'd have an online coterie and I'd have…well, you don't know for sure but on past performance, fuck all…and clearly the our relationship might become secondary to some external distraction, or worse - I guess that I am concerned about us means I care!
Is it possible to sustain such a non-exclusive behaviour and not destroy our relationship?