jaesodead

one of those nights.


Tonight i miss...
Just for tonight, i will miss you forever.
And then never again.
But only for tonight, i miss the concept of you.
All of you.

its tragic.
Every day that passes i find myself..
Recognizing the broken spirits of the ones i cared for most.
I see them dying...
For minimum wage.
Their eyes are wide open.
And bloodshot and tired.
The vitality and energy they once had is now gone.
and discarded.
Like the cigarette butts and empty beer cans you can find
on the side of any New Jersey highway.

and the others. blind by choice.
I see the sadness behind the smiles of those desperately clinging to their lies.
And i almost envy it.
But you need to be alive to die.
Its never enough just to survive.

All of my dreams are real.
And im sleeping more than ever.


and i love you all,
But the words on the tip of my tongue are oh so fuckin bitter..