Not falling
utterly sinking
into the thought... of you
fear fills my mind
trying to clip the wild wings
of my heart
destination is clearly unknown
this time
shelter from the cold loneliness
somewhere waiting
is it a mirage
not unlike the wetness... of a memory
scorched by the heat
of my heart
looking hard
holding on
imagining
my fall being broken
by your arms...
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utterly sinking
into the thought... of you
fear fills my mind
trying to clip the wild wings
of my heart
destination is clearly unknown
this time
shelter from the cold loneliness
somewhere waiting
is it a mirage
not unlike the wetness... of a memory
scorched by the heat
of my heart
looking hard
holding on
imagining
my fall being broken
by your arms...
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thecowboy:
...woah...
mothra:
damned all you poets, these journals are so hard to respond to, but good luck with wahtever endevour your running after...
clearly I see you
clearly I see me
the clouds are clearing
in my mind
eyes open
questions answered
they were here
obvious
not so hard to find
You are here in my head
and now so am I
I was out
Now I am here
Alive again
for the first time
i do believe
I trust
in me
breathing you
in and out
of...
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clearly I see me
the clouds are clearing
in my mind
eyes open
questions answered
they were here
obvious
not so hard to find
You are here in my head
and now so am I
I was out
Now I am here
Alive again
for the first time
i do believe
I trust
in me
breathing you
in and out
of...
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applerecords1251:
You are so damn cool.
kira:
uncle pussy has some damn good taste in girls...you are fucking hot. i love your pics.
My life is really starting to feel more organized , which feels easier, I just feel like I am able to deal with things a lot better and more calmly recently. For instance Yesterday I got a suspension notice from the DMV! What the...yeah it happened to be a big misunderstanding and i knew that but I also realized you cant just call them up...
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diversenine:
Jae..........your amazing, and now I think Im really getting to see who you really are. Monkey ROOO!
teufel:
nothing..i said nothing
Will and Grace would be jealous of what we have...
Last night I lost my cell phone. I was really upset. Kody and I always spend our days off together. I was thinking he would probably be a little shitty with me because he seemed to have wanted to hang out last night and I unfortunately made a wrong turn along the way. So it...
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Last night I lost my cell phone. I was really upset. Kody and I always spend our days off together. I was thinking he would probably be a little shitty with me because he seemed to have wanted to hang out last night and I unfortunately made a wrong turn along the way. So it...
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doubleo:
that seems to be the issue. i'm as straight as they come. so yes, you set the date.
diversenine:
made a wrong turn...............its fawking exhilarating to be know as the wrong turn...I told you I was a rebel dottie. I think the wrong turn might actually get you on the right path. Yeah you and Kody should get hitched, its a shame he knows exactly what he's getting in too. That might be the whole problem.....remember Jae, no pain no gain. I love you though I promise.
Last night I decided to go out and be one of the guys. It was Evan's 29th birthday he got a room at the Legacy resort for the week and had decided that the guys were going to drink and go to some strip clubs. I actually feel very flattered that he invited me. All the guys wives were at home and Kody met us...
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amory:
Saddest thing of all is I've NEVER been to a strip club!!! I'm jealous.
Sounds like you had much fun
Again, i'm secretly jealous.
Sounds like you had much fun
Again, i'm secretly jealous. 
rockoblm:
Strip joints are evil. The devil's lair! But damn if it isn't the best place to kick back and relax at.
Oh wow. Last night was fun. I drove up to Jugheads alone for the Jeff Dahl's benefit show ( craig's bday), labor party and bring your own weapon both played
It was nice to see Craig ,although he wasn't too thrilled about seeeing me initially. After Bring your Own Weapon he was taking some equipment out and I stopped him with a mean glance ,...
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It was nice to see Craig ,although he wasn't too thrilled about seeeing me initially. After Bring your Own Weapon he was taking some equipment out and I stopped him with a mean glance ,...
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ikonoklast:
ryan has a platnium tongue. especially if he convinced someone to lick a sweaty deoderant armpit. the devil himself
amory:
Awwww you are sweet. You give me bi tendancies *this is a TOTAL COMPLIMENT coming from me!!!*
FUCK
I can't believe after so long you would shit on me
FUCK
The only bitch I ever held close , fucking cunt
FUCK
I let you into my house you disrespectful slut
FUCK
Years and years of trust, loyalty gone for what
FUCK
I thought you were my sister I cared I believed you
FUCK
I can't believe after so long you would shit on me
FUCK
The only bitch I ever held close , fucking cunt
FUCK
I let you into my house you disrespectful slut
FUCK
Years and years of trust, loyalty gone for what
FUCK
I thought you were my sister I cared I believed you
FUCK
applerecords1251:
all right!! some emotion
ayin:
Thank you Fred Durst....what the hell did she do to deserve being called all that stuff?
I am so burnt out. I feel like I have been going non-stop for about a month now. Every night going out dancing, drinking, or dating. Obviously to keep my mind from actually focusing on any reality. Which is a coping tactic for me. It doesnt usually work well, it eventually does catch up to you. And when it does you just have to catch...
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ikonoklast:
i think thats exactly your problem. too much emotion. too much focus on yourself. maybe think outside your circle. forget yourself in the weave of fabric. you are but one thread in a giant group making cloth.
diversenine:
making cloth............hum. If your a shitty thread the shirt comes apart. Anyways. Jae your thinking is beautiful. In a way Im proud of myself............making it able to be proud of you...........
I am seriously plotting this is true.
I am thinking of all of the things I can do.
What shall I do next?
What will hurt me less,
but completely destroy you?
I will not wait No not this time
my thoughts are quick and clear
quick like a dagger and/or a spear
My burning inside has ignited flames
burning out your eyes
I cannot...
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I am thinking of all of the things I can do.
What shall I do next?
What will hurt me less,
but completely destroy you?
I will not wait No not this time
my thoughts are quick and clear
quick like a dagger and/or a spear
My burning inside has ignited flames
burning out your eyes
I cannot...
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lesleyslenning:
hey sweetie.....stay tough 
diversenine:
she is tough............what a complicated web we weave.
circling round
flipping around
my head
spins
throbbing limbs
yearning begins
my body
begs
dripping wet
soaking down
my skin
slips
tingling kiss
lingering now
my lips
miss
flipping around
my head
spins
throbbing limbs
yearning begins
my body
begs
dripping wet
soaking down
my skin
slips
tingling kiss
lingering now
my lips
miss
crazyrick:
hey, what's up? I'm glad that you said hi...how's mesa this fine day? um...I'm an idiot and am going to continue to eat....
ikonoklast:
oh baby i like it raw.... get raw, feel nude and enjoy it. spread those legs in a super slutty way and be proud.