jaeiam

Today is my day off , I slept in until almost noon. I woke up feeling lucky to have essentially slept half of the day away. Less of the this dreadful holiday mumbo jumbo to have to live through. Yesterday I had the typical " Meltdown" and yes it was at the mall. I was sobbing as i walked to my car. I could hardly see through my tears as I drove home screaming and crying into my cell phone. I finally did take Ryan's advice and pull over to breath. What is sad is that if I would of been in a horrible accident and killed half a dozen people I personally believe that I wouldv'e come back to torturously haunt that idiotic photographer at The Picture People.
My day had revolved around getting these photographs of my son taken, only to end up walking out of that mall several hours later with nothing. No photos taken, demon child hungry, and my head throbbing. BAH humbug! Fuck Christmas piece of shit holiday... it obviously doesn't mean anything to me besides tradition. The childhood happiness that I had I would like to give to my little boy. One huge problem is that I might need to have just enough left on my credit card to buy me a pretty little coffin with a big pretty bow. My account expires on the 18th ...