jaeiam

Not only once, not twice, so many fucking times now. I can't keep track. People I get close to tell me it is BETTER, their lives are better without me. I hear it only though from the people that take pieces of me with them when they go. I don't feel better I feel empty. So empty now. I destroy myself NO one can destroy me. I can't stop it though I mean I can try not to get close. Its the same shit everytime. Too much stress, too much drama. I hate myself though for this. Only now I see If they all say the same it is me. If everyones lives are better and they all say the same thing then its inevitable that who ever I get close to will feel the same way its a pattern too much stress too much drama is me
I am too much stress and too much drama
Without me there is peace and sanity
Wthout me is better
I know
I feel the same way
about myself
I hear you ryan
I know I hate me too
i hate to be around me
I hate to see my face
I hate how cheap
I hate how fucked
Without me is better
without out
no drama
no stress
less mess
more sex
fuck me
fuck you
fuck so many girls
the hicky
fuck it too
It will fade
and I will
Everything
I hate it
I hate it
I do
I hear you Ryan
you innocent you
Your dreams
your fear
Your way out
Your justice my love
your jealousy
your rage
Youre crazy
youre out
youre off
youre gone
i'm lost
your'e right
I'm wrong
move on
too long
or so long
should say
farewell
to jae