jaeiam

I am torn today and left somewhere between my idealistic views and reality. I believe it is possible to find someone that inspires my creative flow, my deep thoughts, and brings out my hardest laughter. I believe I can find all of these qualities in someone beautiful and sexual , someone that I truly connect with physically and emotionally. What I am unsure of is how many times I will find almost all besides one or two of these qualities, how many times will I be left so unsatisfied? How many people will I have 'connections' with in order to fulfill all of my needs? Should I continue picking people apart and taking what I want and giving back the rest? It is disappointing. I only want one. The one I want though seems to be a combination of a dozen powerful minds. The one I want hasn't been formed into my reality. The one I want is still a part of me, in my head, my thoughts and my dreams. The one I wish to create.