jaeci

I am:

keeping secrets
losing patience
breaking down
fading out
backsliding backsliding backsliding
second-guessing
rethinking
undecided



I am not:
endless
interested
I am not I am not I am not




Life, grand, complicated life

Pour me a warm basin of water
I need to soak my feet,
I need to wash away the aches from walking miles
in so many different shoes

And right now
let me indulge my menial concerns
Because I am not generally free to worry
about such little things




The pain in my chest is back.
The pain in my fucking chest is back.