jae_murder

its either misery

or nothing at all

trying to choose between two evils
is still so difficult for me

i love feeling creative and full of things to write and pictures to take and i love feeling as sexual as i am, but i hate the horrible empty lonesome feelings that come along with it all for me.

i know how to fix it, how...
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new "photoset" added. if you are interested... "green room" pretty short, but you get the idea

even as the sun is shining

it feels just like
cold lonesome winter

all around me

days like today (in the middle of the winter)
when the sun shines,
you drive with the widows down,
and you are in love,
life seems so much easier.

you get the car
ill get the map



we made a record high here in boulder colorado yesterday. 70 degrees on may 8th.

too bad its going to ber cold as hell tomorrow.... my day off.

hello??!! i have one more drink till i have to sleep, someone talk to me!!!

for 5 years now
ive watched you
wash your face
and feed your cat

from my back porch

for 5 years now
ive seen you
fall in love
and die of heart break

from my bedroom window

for 5 years now
youve seemed so perfect
so etheral
and so sweet

in my dreams

ooooh come on. someone just talk to me. aim = caseofnowayout

even though
the sun was shining
all year long

my memories
remain dark


and my bed stays cold

going out to dinner last night with joe was really fun, the food was awesome and the people at the restraunt were really really strange, so it was good times all around.

but then i got really tired

and i was boring

maybe tonight i will feel better