jadednerdgirl

I think these meds for my current illness bring out some extremely funky dreaming habits. I fall asleep quickly after taking them and then I cannot get up. I am not use to that at all. then when I wake up I can't snap out of these dream states. Like this morning I was in the middle of something and when I woke up I had to keep going through the motion. maybe its cause someone forced me up to move my car but usually when I get woken up I can run downstairs move it without problem and then go upstairs then lay in bed awake and eventually go back to sleep. I don't think right now I am awake when I move my car and then I am sleeping before the head hits my pillow. I am not getting any of the type of dreams that I will come back and see in real life and I am not getting any of the weird nightmare type scenerios. just odd .... but I have cold meds with codeine... and that alone messes up my dreams.

I think my problem that in PA I feel like myself and at ease then I don't get all of these odd anxieties and panic attacks. Florida I just didn't feel like I was home and originally like an outsider. I felt like I could never rest and things were kept quiet about me. I think that has been why I had worse anxiety issues here that some I never even had when I lived in PA. when I went back to PA, I did things that I normally wouldn't do in FL and reacted in situations differently. I am started that its partly in my subconcious and now that I realize it that I am going to change as much as it that I can. I am not going to allow myself get sick from being in public. If I didn't do it in PA then I won't let myself do it here. gee I wonder if I should say any of this at my med review that I have in less than 2 hours. it might make betty happy and then she will want a hug. though that means I could mess with her again. I know I shouldn't mess with the docs that give me meds. but hey its fun.

lately I have been thinking if my ways in life are changing. if I want things different but I don't know what I am really talking about. I think my tastes are starting to change.

hmm yesterday I papercut myself with a mat (hurts so bad because it goes in good because of the bevel... its like cardboard cut but deeper usually...ick) one on the webbing of my hand. hurt all day then on my finger I paper cut a wart half way. that is on my right hand so it is constantly being touch. so now I am missing half a wart. damn it hurts constantly

so doc appointment then order these glasses that I adore so I can get them in a week. they are a little less geeky ( I am sad over the less geeky) but I still love them then carving cement out of plaster that is sitting in a kiddie pool filled with water. hmm exciting. still have to do my lit final tonight.

Last day of classes tomorrow

hmm I love redheads....