I just got told by this guy I was hanging out that I was hanging out with him cause he had money. Ha that is funny. I don't hang out with anyone that really has money. Everyone I hang out with is just squeeking by. One thing that is nice about that is I don't have to worry about trying to come up with money to do things with people and we don't do anything that costs much. I did let this guy pay for things when we hung out. It was demeaning. I hate not being able to pay my own way.

At one point I thought this guy was nice. Then he started calling everyday and wanting to hang out everyday. Then I have been called uncultured cause I wouldn't listen to rap. I am loose because I am not a virgin and that I like girls. I have life trouble because I believe a relationship needs passion or spark. He showed some just reasons that he is not all with it and showed some major creepy warning signs. I won't go into too much but I need to vent some.

Now since I made it ultimately clear that I would not date him, he now calls me a hoe. I have slept with others in the past but won't date him so now I am white trash that won't date him because he is black. I got told I am a "typical trick ass bitch". Actually calling me a bitch was a way to start off the conversation.

Yesterday afternoon I stopped picking up his calls which is annoying cause he will call me and then call 5 minutes later. He did that every 45 minutes yesterday for three hours while I was at work then again when I got off. Then 3 more times that night. I finally called him back today. which after a minute he couldn't talk. so I talked to my friend kadence which I needed to call. So he calls back a couple times while I was on the phone with her so I turned off my phone at her suggestion. Then I was chased off the phone so we could run an errand then I had to take care of a bunch of kitchen work before it got too late. finally when I got to sit down someone calls my friends house. of course it is this guy. This isn't even my phone. Every once and a while I will make a call on it. but most of the time I try not to tie it up. I certainly don't let people call me on it. so he calls after we finally got the kids asleep. He also knows that this is the person that just had surgery a few days ago. So I got mad and yelled. I forgot to turn my phone back on so he calls my friends phone. and I am apparently an asshole for getting mad. He knew it wasn't my number. Of course my friend wasn't happy. but then she heard me yell at him so she was then okay with that.

apparently I get to meet psychopath men. so I should refrain from meeting them. apparently I am a hoe too. Which is so funny cause I stay home all the time and when I actually do go out I don't pick up anyone cause I am too busy talking to my friends. I wonder why I started being so quietly shy around people I meet. This is the reason. cause I only meet the crazy ones.

Tomorrow is my interview. I hope I get it. It will solve all my problems and I will get back on track with my life.

I made stromboli tonight. so that will be dinner tomorrow.