jacqui

*sigh*
well like my last journal entry this one will also be quite depressing and confusing .....
i dont want to get into anything specific coz i feel that i am kind and trustworthy BUT i can say that right now i feel extremely betrayed and i dont know if i should or not ? we all do it i suppose,we fall in love and hold that one person high up so no one else can ever come close to them, and when they do somehting that isnt to the liking of the relationship we feel deeply hurt and let down by the other persons actions. most of the time i think we pass it off but i know that it stays with us, we just collect the memory and label it as the time the person u love made a silly mistake. i tried to do that last night, i told myself that, that it was nothing and it wasnt that serious but it didnt work and i couldnt kid myself this time so now i am hurt and sad and feel alone.i feel like being spiteful but that wont make me feel any better coz i have been there and done all that shit and it doesnt serve any purpose at all.i wish i could just walk to my mums house and chill there till my feelings and anger pass but i cant i have to suck all that in and try and act normal and uneffected so we can play happy familes
wtf i am doing ?