jacquesdemolay

Been feeling a bit like a man on his way to the gallows. I should probably explain that. The girl has been on my mind a lot lately. It's been years since she left and I guess it has gotten a bit easier with time, but it's made it's way to the front of my mind again. I haven't had any communication with her since June and I was starting to be able to put her out of my mind. The problem is that my birthday is coming up and she never fails to write on my birthday. I know that getting an email from her would throw me for a loop but the first year I don't get one won't be that easy either. Basically there's no way for this to play out that won't suck.

The last time we were communicating regularly was back in April. She was turning 30 and was a bit freaked out about it. I offered what insight I could, although being younger it's a milestone I still haven't hit myself. A bit after that I was going through a rough patch myself when a friend of mine back in Cleveland died. She was a great help during this, and if that were to be my last memory of her, I guess it isn't such a bad one.


Anyway, party at mine Friday. I expect all of you SG Israel people to be there.

Later