unfortunate update
all of my happy talk will now be on hold as it turns out I get to be in all alone and not sure what the fuck is happening to me mode for the near future
i feel really awful now
update it looks official
i got dumped
close intimacy for 1 year and eight months then in 24 hours shes gone with no actual explanation
i wanna die
I never thought I could miss someone so much
don't want to be that fool that holds out hope but I am realizing that I am that fool right now and will have feelings for her for some time and wont be able to date or hook up or anything else to distract me...fuck life is hard and I am a stupid baby....fuck....
I didnt understand how it happened and knew she was lying about it so I snooped and found out she did go off with a new man. I have a right to know why she just bailed with saying anything was wrong.
I went ape and sent here hate mail, if anyone knew how the relationship developed and what i did do to be good to her a little hatemail is appropriate here. I would never hurt anyone but if you build me up for a year and a half then just dump me while violating everything we were to each other I am gonna tell you off. I now get to be the horrible ex so she can hide from the guilt. In the end I will be way better off, the drinking and complaining and depressive way she lived her life (long before me) really zapped and possible happiness so I can break free from that now
all of my happy talk will now be on hold as it turns out I get to be in all alone and not sure what the fuck is happening to me mode for the near future
i feel really awful now
update it looks official
i got dumped
close intimacy for 1 year and eight months then in 24 hours shes gone with no actual explanation
i wanna die
I never thought I could miss someone so much
don't want to be that fool that holds out hope but I am realizing that I am that fool right now and will have feelings for her for some time and wont be able to date or hook up or anything else to distract me...fuck life is hard and I am a stupid baby....fuck....
I didnt understand how it happened and knew she was lying about it so I snooped and found out she did go off with a new man. I have a right to know why she just bailed with saying anything was wrong.
I went ape and sent here hate mail, if anyone knew how the relationship developed and what i did do to be good to her a little hatemail is appropriate here. I would never hurt anyone but if you build me up for a year and a half then just dump me while violating everything we were to each other I am gonna tell you off. I now get to be the horrible ex so she can hide from the guilt. In the end I will be way better off, the drinking and complaining and depressive way she lived her life (long before me) really zapped and possible happiness so I can break free from that now
thyestean23:
been there, done that. Wanna chat let me know.