jackmcginnis

What's the proper way to say "I'm sorry but I don't really want you in my life at all. You psychologically messed me up and wanted no part of helping me get better. So please leave me alone. " to someone really close to you.

Nevermind. I guess once I move it will be a little easier to just ignore them.

The apartment stuff is coming along. I Fedexed out the forms today and should hear back pretty soon. Hopefully it will be mine by December 1st. The move worries me a but only since it's probably going to be wicked. Not because of the whole moving part but because of who it's with and their choice to ignore the fact that even if they were to shit a new them it still wouldn't make up for things.

Ok so I guess I'm still a little pissy still. Which I guess reinforces the fact that I need to make some nice, normal, friends. I guess that this point I'm just ranting. That's healthy right? I mean healthier then other alternatives.

You know the above person is probably why I value kindness done without expectation and why I've tried to do kindness done without expectation since I never saw it as a kid from them. To this day I haven't them do something nice or kind without some sort of reward or purpose or gain in it. Which is kind of sad. It's sad to see adults have to figure out the lies their parents told them as kids. Sad to see any trust they had disappear.

But now I know I'm really rambling. So I'm going to go spend some time with the cats. They're good people.