jackmcginnis

Gah, it's been a pretty shitty week. Yeah I'm gonna whine and vent since I've been meaning to since Wednesday. So take that as a warning. Any supportive comments are welcome.

So yeah that whole Zingerman's roadhouse thing. Complete and utter bullshit. They say they're gonna call they don't. They say call in at a particular time and they person who I suppose to talk to isn't in or is doing something they'll be doing for another hour. I mean I can handle just never being called back after an interview or after my trial shift but saying your gonna call and not FIVE different times is pure and utter shit. I wasn't pissed until a friend of my mother's decided to give me "tips" on how to get this job. I mean I'm nothing but nice to my mother's friends so I really don't know where his very defensive tone came from.

I guess the whole not calling me back thing is becoming one of my major pet peeves since my supposed best friend, Tom, has dropped off the face of the earth after "forgetting" about our plans to hang out and blowing me off...twice...in a row. Hence I've been a little on edge this week.

I mean I'd like think that I'm pretty good with being pissed off and putting up with bullshit. I don't get angry and throw things or yell at people or break things. I'm able to be dragged out to my mother's social events (despite the fact that I do have a life of my often) where her and her friends trade one-uping and not say a single negative thing.

I'm starting to fall back into my old habits. I'm sitting at my bar in the basement watching Radio Free Roscoe and feeding my diet coke addiction. I'm kind of missing my old station CFRC in Kingston. I mean yeah the students I lived with were complete assholes but the kids I spun discs with were some the best people I think I've ever worked with. Well except that bluegrass guy...he was kind of...problematic.

Though I guess it doesn't help that this week while all of this crap is happening I've been extremely lonely. As I've stated before I've been looking for...hoping for the a good girl to come along. I don't know, are good girls that hard to come by. I've kind of tried to figure out what I was doing wrong all this time but I finally figured out that if I have change the way I'm acting or hide the way I am to get the girl then they aren't liking me they're liking someone else. It's always amusing that when I try to talk to my "friends" about what I want, who I want, etc they end up picking on some word I used and then dragging it on to meaningless dribble so they don't have to think or prove they are actually capable of saying anything meaningful. The biggest one is when I commented that Canada does have a lot of interesting and good looking girls and this was changed to meaning that I ONLY like Canadian girls. Yes there are a lot of very good looking and very interesting Canadian girls (I mean we only have to look as far as SG to see this) but I don't limit my self to made up labels. Hell I try not to limit my self by requirements. Sure I have preferences but hey I'm always growing and always changing.

So I have one last note before I wrap up this rambling vent of a writing. I've found my self kind of attracted to the local coffee shop girls and others in such positions. I guess they make me feel like there is someone else. Someone who has a purpose but is thought not to actually be a person with feelings. I mean I've seen so much crap that is just taken by them without so much as nasty comment. Of course I've seen it first hand too. Then again I guess they just seem like normal cool people who would probable be the best to just cuddle with and talk with.