jackmcginnis

I want to be able ride my bike again.  I love the rain but it's been going on for something like five days with no end in sight. 

My father and I had another one of those heart to heart talks that we have been he has a little too much to drink.  Some surprises but pretty much the same things I've heard before.  He cares and wants to give me all the support he can but he's afraid.  He doesn't have the strength all the time to fix mine.  And really I've come to accept that.  I've always been one to fight my battles and handle my issues on my own.  He means well and cares.  But it made me realize more how much of a negative influence my mother has been on life.  Yeah she's fucked me up pretty bad over the years.  But again it's something that I just deal with.

Tom ditched me for something like the third or forth time in a row.  Oh well I had the suspicion that he was just using me.

From seeing people around Ann Arbor I'm discovering that I'm not a person anymore.  I'm just a ghost from peoples' pasts.