jackmcginnis

Time for me to write depressed ranting again.  I guess I'll try to be brief.  I'm back in Ann Arbor...for good.  Well at least for an extended while.  But I feel shitty.  I feel depressed.  I mean who wouldn't after going through what I just went through.  The hellish nine months have taken their toll on me.  The people I lived with basically made my life a living hell until the last day when they pulled the "oh we're gonna miss you act."  Well all the kids made my life a living a hell except one.  I guess she's the reason I'm depressed.  Because she's gone.  Gone without a clue for of I felt about her.  I think I wrote about her before and how I was too "noble" to tell her how I felt and complicate her good life.  Sure I feel a little bit bad about leaving them that letter that told them nicely that they had made my life a living hell and all I wanted to do was be their friend and asked them to tell the truth to Liz.  To tell her that I cared very much about her.  But I feel horrible about leaving her behind.  But I know it would have never worked out.  She was an amazingly good person and I'm no where near her level.  I don't think I'm evil just that she deserves something better.  I guess if you really care about someone the most noble thing you can is sacrifice your own happiness for theirs.  So I guess it's time to move on.  It'll take time.  It'll probably involve a lot of tears.  Time to go shed some.