jackinblack

i have totally fucked up
its like over the long weekend, well like thursday night friday saturday sunday and monday
i have been totally getting wasted everynight somewhere or other to fill the void to numb myself to just fuckin forget shit happens like this
and anyway all those e's and drinks and entry charges and taxis and i totally spent every drop of my pitiful money away and i dont get paid until thursday
iam fried as well
like in a dream state and feelin really fuckin scatter brained
and i also have no food
well like a tin of mixed beans and condiments
and its fuckin freezing
shit shit shit
seriously iam fucked
though i do have a bottle of vodka and another e somewhere or other
but not much doin on tuesday and i feel really tired and like im also trying to crawl out of my skin

edited to add
thank fuck for shrapnel
scrounged every pocket i own
and dug up enough for something to eat at least
holy shit that was close
im so skeletal as it is without starving near to death
felt so wacked out at work today
like everything was through a telescope or something
totally zombified
newest greatest band is
hotchip
get them now !!!
great to paint to
even great to work to
and i reakon they's make killer music to fuck to
still ive gotta find someone before i can put that to the test....