jackbrown

so i'm watching lost even though i haven't watched any of this season and only little bits her and there since the begining. kind of confusing.

nothing too interesting to talk about. everything has been ok, kind of slow which given the time of year i expect at work. right now is the first time i've been single this time of year in 7 years. actually maybe its 8 years, i don't even know anymore. its weird, i've been talking to a couple of girls and seeing where things are going to go. i'm still kind of reeling from the whole deal with sarah, i feel ok with things, i understand why they happened and all that. just still weird i guess

last week i had lunch with my ex of 6 and a half years, which turned out to be rather weird. i thought i was still in love with her but when faced with sitting across from her eating lunch, i didn't feel anything. she almost seemed more like a stranger to me than anything. it was strange given that she was the most important person in the world to me for so long and well, until we broke up the first time around when i turned 30 a couple years ago, i was ready to get married and was thinking about how i was going to propose. lately i've been thinking about trying to get in touch with another ex that i really was a piece of shit to 11 years ago when we broke up. not so much that i was a dick to her then but i strung her along for almost a year, making promises that i never kept. i don't know why i did that to her, she was easily the best girlfriend i ever had, i've never ever been happier with anyone. i guess i have to chalk it up to being young and stupid.

Jack