jackbrown

so she is coming by to exchange dvds back. i'm not totally sure how i feel about this as i haven't seen her since sunday when she pretty much smashed me. its just a weird situation because i know we can be friends, as we should be since we never should have been more in the first place but things ended up turning out differently and i guess i got more attatched than she did. i think being that i was further out of my last relationship and was probably looking for something more than she was led to the problem. i really hate feeling like this and i know because the reason she broke off dating me is because i'm 10 years older than her and she felt like a little kid when we talked sometimes so i know if it would ever work out between us it's going to be sometime years from now. it was just weird dating someone who understood the weirdness and weird hours that come with working in a venue. its strange that i keep posting to my blog here, where its likely that no one will ever see it so that i know she won't see it either. i don't want her to know how much all of this has effected me.

also the fact that my roommate is now dating a girl again that he started dating a month ago, broke up for 2 weeks and are back together and they fuck constantly isn't helping me at all. twice today and its only 2...