jackbrown

blah, i guess all things come to an end, the better the sooner. last post i made i talked about a girl i had started dating, who i really liked and really enjoyed her company all the time (which is a rarity) anyway in the past couple of weeks, since christmas really, things have been a little weird between us and i wasn't sure why. finally today i found out that it was the age gap (she is 21, which is 10 years younger than me) that she couldn't get over. there was also some things between us with things getting more serious than either of us had intended. when we started dating she was a little over a month out of a 7 month relationship and i was about 3 or 4 months out of a 6 year one so neither of us really intended for it to be serious but in the first month we were together (november) we were together practically every day and were pretty rarely apart for even a full day so i think because of that we got more serious than we meant to.

it sucks that i'd love to stay friends with her and i know she wants to stay friends but i don't really know how possible that's going to be. if nothing else we won't be able to hang out very often because of feelings already in place and i don't know how well it will really work anyway because i don't know how i would really feel about doing things with her without the possibility of if nothing else curling up together in front of the tv to watch movies or something. i guess life goes on no matter how much the next little while is going to suck