ok Im not a happy munkey as of late my best friend has decided she dosnt have room for me in her life right now. another close friend that I love dearly has just been re-diagnosed with cancer after getting a clean bill of health and dubed cancer free just six months ago. so I am getting ready to hold her hand threw as much of that as I am able but it dosnt help that we have 120 miles between us. and to make matters even worse is my voice has been all fucked up for weeks on end now. not able to hit highs, cracking on lows, and a cronic cough. turns out I may have a paulup (sp?) in my sinuses preventing proper drainage and makeing it clog up my throat. so I may very well need surgery, but as my brave little friend reminds me of so often..."could be worse, you could have cancer."