jace

Finally told my ex how I feel: that I would have never, ever, have done to her what she did to me. That breaking up with me when we were both in love with each other, just to go fuck around with this other guy because she was attracted to him, felt like she bailed on our relationship without even trying to fix it. That she didn't give our relationship the chance it deserved. That apparently all it takes is being interested in someone for her to give up on someone who loved her. That the fact that she didn't wait for us to properly break up and for our feelings for each other to subside before she put herself out there for someone else, both emotionally and physically, felt like a betrayal and destroyed me. That sometimes I'm not convinced that she cares about me anymore, when she claims to. That seeing her with another person so soon, willing to care about someone so soon after me, willing to set time aside for someone and NOT for me, emotionally consumes me. That she broke my heart, and that I want to move away from this entire city, and people I love, just to start over and sever my connection to her so my heart won't ache anymore.

I feel like a monster for making her cry and forcing her to hang up the phone because she couldn't make words anymore, but at the same time, I know that those things all had to be said.

Can I have a hug, please?