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more decisions to make. i have a loaner from thirsty here.

i could go out and have something easy to do tomorrow, last day of the year style, or just ass it on the couch and watch it tonight. tonight might be better - i got a lowly 2 hours sleep last night and have been a little delerious all day, doing weird things, having weird thoughts. sleep deprivation can be interesting tho, plus i don't have many days like this to explore it.

i sat down to log this machine on, then just stood up out of nowhere to look for something that wasn't there and picked up 2 quarters instead. i started walking them over to a drawer i put change in, stopped at the trash can, auto pilot, stepped the crank to open the top and realized what was happening right before i pitched em. my hand was on it's way, right before opening my palm.

reminds me i want to check out sensory deprivation since i was reminded of it a while back by a cool chick we know named jen b. there's a few jens, she's not a rapper. you float in something i think, and there's no sound or light, nothin. supposedly they advise first timers not to go longer than 15 minutes because a lot of people lose it in there. in the tanks. jen b (yo) had said she might try longer. time, or your thought rate i guess at that point probably moves way different, slower. i don't know how long i'd go. i might fall asleep. i would if i did it right now for sure. drift. time for the samarui picture to go back up. i took it on a sleep deprived night like this a few months ago, except i'd been out.