j3nn

Yeah so I was sitting and thinking sometimes it's cool and other times not so much that the guy friends I have in my life think of me as just one of the guys so they can tell me about the affairs they are having and about the chick that he just couldn't pass up because her "tits were just mesmerizing" It makes it so difficult for me to think any man could ever be faithful. I am so jagged. Why? Because I am "just one of the guys" I get to hear the way the guys really think and all the juicy details that is usually saved for drinking buddy conversation. And I get to hear all about my guy friends cheating on their wives. And staying out and partying all night while she is home with the kids etc. Not saying that any of it is one sided for all I know the wife has completely cut him off and he just "needs attention he is not getting at home" (gotta love that excuse!) IT just isn't right. I feel more and more that my cousin is right and men and women are not meant to be together "forever" and the fact that it is expected just causes infidelity, lying, and heartache. IT seems like it is almost better to go into it knowing that it will probably not last forever and if it does someone is most likely cheating in some way or another. I know... I need therapy! But it is so hard to not start to think this way when you listen to people talk and have experienced the things I have. (ie. only one man I was ever with for an extended period of time did not cheat. AT LEAST that I know of)

When ever I write shit like this or say anything about this I get the token guys saying "They aren't all like that! I am very faithful." well that is probably because the right temptation has not come along. Never say Never.



Anyways I am done with my cynical post and I am going to sleep now. Good night!