Today Sucked, i think shawn caught up with school and couldnt make it over tonight. which i totally understand. But my friends say they are gonna come by and fuckin completely blow me off and bail on me without saying a word. SO now i know its a dumb idea but im getting drunk trying to ignore feeling hurt again by my friends. hell who...
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grumpyoldbastard:
dont let it take you over, you beat it before, you can again 
dont let it take you over, you beat it before, you can again
grumpyoldbastard:
Ugg i soo did not need to hear this news today from my shrink.... she says if i lose anymore weight i get to go to the hospital and not by choice... i HATE hospitals... i'm trying tho. this eating disorder isn't the easiest thing to stop. wish me luck guys. *hugs* i will let you know if i have to leave. 
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mickster:
I hope you're sucessful in dealing with the eating disorder. I know that can be as difficult as alcoholism and other addictive behavior. You look great in the Butterflies set but I'd hate for you to get any skinnier.
Hang in there!!
Hang in there!!
grumpyoldbastard:
get bettermy zumi love
Well it happened, Jared and I are no more but strangely, i'm ok with it. We're still great friends, and i'm still moving here to Ohio. And We're still going to visit each other. So all in al I had an ok week. I'm going home today, and to the doc tomorrow i'll update then on what illness i have. 
zealotschoice:
sorry to hear .. i know thats not why you went up there .. im here for u if u need .. hugzz
zc
zc
chaoticmonkey:
awwww malena, sorry to hear that babe...come to Ohio, Ill show ya a good time!
Great news everyone! I'M OUT OF REHAB! and safely back home and 114 lbs. Happy to happy turkey day to alll. thank you to everyone who supported me through this hard time in my life. i greatly appreciate it.
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waterfordman:
Welcome back now get yourself back into chat and back to your happy happy self
eyesofatragedy:
im glad to read youre doing well.. 114lbs? you need to eat double the turkey!!! 
I hope you can keep up the positive thinking my dear.. glad to see you in a better headspace.. my thoughts are with you, take care!
I hope you can keep up the positive thinking my dear.. glad to see you in a better headspace.. my thoughts are with you, take care!Today was a little better. I ate a sandwich for lunch and i kept it down. I never really ate breakfast anyways so i still don't. But it's dinner i'm worried about, that's a family thing and i can't control how many calories i intake. Unless i cook it but i'm not tonight so eep/...... 
zealotschoice:
small portions.. (i know this is a little but it will pay off later too.)
zc
zc
Damnit! I'm trying I'm really working my ass off to beat this thing, but then there's that other voice that says i have to lose this weight. Today i said fuck it and i binged like crazy all day, then after dinner i felt horrid from eating fried chicken, greasy burgers, fries, and milkshakes all day so i went and i threw up but i...
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johnnyutahx:
Stay Strong Skye....
Well I am getting better a little bit. 400 calories today ^^. I deeply thank you all for your support. It's a struggle everyday but i'm managing through it.
the_boss:
Izzy!
Oh man. I just finshed my food for the day and i feel so fucking eww. so full that i want to just go puke. 715 damn calories... uggg that's too much! Way too much. i just feel disgusting right now, so full, and bloated and FUCKING FAT!! I'm not eating but like 210 calories tomorrow maybe then i'll feel better. i'm going back into...
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eyesofatragedy:
youre not fat.. get that bullshit out of your head right now.. puking it not an answer to weightloss. If you want to feel better.. exercise.. it helps with weight and mood management... Youre a beautiful woman.. dont let yourself be diluted with craziness in thinking youre fat.. because youre NOT!! You know better than that my dear.. just have to get yourself out of the negative mindset.. i hope you feel better soon.. much love my sista
Ok guys.... i figure since my friend knows, and i'm attempting to get help i may as well get some help from you guys as well. I have been anorexic off and on for the past 3 years. I'm trying like hell to straighten out on my own, but i have noticed i need a bit of help. Thank you in advance and it\s taken...
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traceelement:
Good luck lady, I support your efforts 100% definitely not an easy thing to admit to others, let alone yourself. Much respect.
kobeyk:
Iz...you're braver than me. Good luck in your quest for happiness in this and every area. I wish you nothing but the best.
Well as some of you know i have been having issues with my right elbow and arm tendons lately due to over use of them at work, (driving the train) pushing and pulling on levers and brakes all day long for about two weeks straight. Aparently that has caused an old injury from highschool to resurface. My tendon in my right arm has become hyperextended...
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providencia:
I'll second that hope for you.
Pain like that is a bitch, I hope you get relief soon.
Pain like that is a bitch, I hope you get relief soon.
waterfordman:
You must post some pictures of you driving the train
Hope you get the pain sorted soon
Hope you get the pain sorted soon