Saturday Feb 26, 2005

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Today's been something like swimming in a cool lake on a summer day, really pungent and exhilirating but dark and scary underneath but anticipatory of the coming to shore, drying off, finding your clothes and getting your underwear back on with great difficulty cause you're still wet.

It also feels like the Roxy Music video for "slave to love" -- he's coming off the private jet with the sunset baclighting his Armani supershoulder padded trench coat as he races into a waiting limo, chased by male models who are supposed to look sinister (um . . . asking too much?), as his lover is waiting in her matching trench coat with nothing on underneath, but a great shorn bush of bleach blond on her head, which I want to emulate one day, and she's in a mansion and he finds her and they (we are left to imagine) will have really hot rock-star-on-b-list-model sex that will occur offscreen.

I'm the guy driving the limo.
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lost_dog:
Wow, I'd love to know what you had to do today. It really could be anything given your position in the fantasy. I could be sarcastic but for the sake of friendship I'll avoid it. smile
visitord:
confused? you must be sleepy. i know i am.

a lot of people i've spoken to over the years have a problem wanting to have nude pix shot of themselves because they have lousy self-esteem. many of these same people view porn. porn's a fucking illusion. i've seen enough of it shot so that i know what a girl or a boy look like heading into a shoot and know what they look like after styling. if people with shitty self-esteem had pictures taken of them in the truest sense of what porn actually meant, it would mean brushing them with the same veneer and then shooting them with the same long lenses that are used in proper porn. however... too many people fail to see the whole process and view the photos as documentation of some sort of impossible reality which, for many people, serves to perpetuate their shitty self-esteem.

was that unclear?

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