iyce

hellooo my prettys....

i'm feeling so blah..blah right now. i got wasted again last night/early this morning and i threw up everywhere. i threw up on some books , on my bed , on the kitchen floor , on my nintendo , on the bathroom floor , and on the ends of my hair . i also freaked out and called my mom and my aunt. my mom said i left a message saying it was an emergency. my aunt said i called her crying that i couldn't stop throwing up and the room kept spinning and i kept falling etc....and then she said i hung up on her... i don't remember all that happened, but when i woke up i was butt naked with puke all over my pillow and a wet towel under me. so then i remembered that i took a shower, but i still had puke in my hair. so i go to take another shower and i see all my jewelry i was wearing last night...in the tub...
i don't know why i keep doing this to myself. the alcohol just creeped up on me at the last minute and i guess me drinking beer and bubbly didn't mix. what a night....... my next door neighbor was with me and we were talking and reading some of his poetry. the next thing i know...he's popping in pornos and pimpology dvds....followed by him telling me.....??? hmm i guess i don't feel comfortable telling you guys. some of you may know why...

anywho...someone on this site said i was a lost, lost soul...like i'm some lost puppy or something. maybe i am....what do you think?