iyce

always love me?

i am jealous
captivated by her angel face
the guys want to try her
anything they would buy her
and no one can take her place
cause this lady
she has a promise
and the guys only got eyes for her
and all the sugar in me
couldn't move their hearts

i can't change their minds
why should i try
and it makes me crazy
because i want one man to hold me
and never let me go
but all the guys love her
and me, they don't even know
and i want to be one man's comfort
a guy who i can care for
but will any guy love me
always love me
love me and never start to love her?



tis sad

you see me cry
you won't let me breathe
i constantly try and
i fall to my knees
all i do is not good
i fight so true
i lose again and
i'll get the trust just to hang it in
i apoligize for being me
you know me, but you don't know me well
i love the love
it makes me end
nothing fades away the pain
inside of me
on and on i will play this game and
i'll quickly want and
will fall again



Honestly...

i admit
i was wrong
but should i bow down
because you've got the power
and i'm stuck in your game
killing myself to live
with daily sorrows
while you are exalted

but you don't understand me
you just want your own way
your heart doesn't feel my pain
and your eyes don't see
how i sleep to fight the days
and your hands don't feel me
when my body starts to shake
and your mouth doesn't taste
the hurt i swallow everyday
no, this doesn't trouble you
because you will always be ok
and i will return to dust
to which i came



Proud Sorrow

i have yet to see
my blue skies
my nation and
i am a saint
left hanging on a rope
with a beautiful name and
i lack righteousness
selah
i have yet to see
my bed of ebony
selah
i have yet to see
my eye's beauty
selah

i desire to be his one
i aspire with the world all around me
i desire to live with this one
i have traveled and he still has found me
i desire the fountains of this one
i desire to receive from this one
i desire the culture of this one
it's my desire
it's my sorrow
its my confusion
it's my tomorrow

i have yet to see myself
my tears
my honor and
i am a country
under the moonlight
with an ethinic beauty and
i lack righteousness
selah



suicide??

my prettys
i feel so confused
i feel like nothing
what's a girl to do
my humbled heart
makes me love all of you
i hope my thoughts
won't scare none of you
with nothing to give
i'm going down rough roads
with no rescue team
but God has his reasons
and i'm undone
and i don't think i will make it
i try
but often times i fake it
because of fear
and it's vanity
i don't want to wander
where no one wouldn't think of me
i have nothing to hide
i'm sad at heart
so if i choose suicide
at least you know my thoughts...