ixxie_sparkle

im not a sad, tortured person. im not. im not suicidal and i havent hurt myself for a very long time. but apparently im going inpatient because everyone around me thinks i am. it isnt that i dont want to die. i really do right now, even when i was a little kid i knew id never see 50. but i would never leave my daughter in this miserable world with no one to raise her properly. im all she has in the world, shes not ready for me to go yet. why does no one understand that? just because i crave death doesnt mean ill kill myself. i wish her father wasnt such an abusive worthless son of a bitch. im ready to go now.