i can't think. it's so fucked up right now.

i have no money. none. i can't buy groceries for my daughter. i can't pay rent next month. i don't know what i'm going to do.

the one person in the world that i thought would never give up on me left me at the airport last fall saying he had to go off and become a famous writer. he will, he's incredible. i apparently misread everything and i fucked it all up. i don't know what i want.