And here begins the rest of my life!
...or so they say.
Yesterday I finished putting up my show for college, it's all over. I can now do whatever I want when I want now. There are so few constrainsts on me from now on, it's feels amazing. It's a strange, it's like a mix of finally feeling like an adult and like being a kid again (on summer holiday).
College. Im so so dissapointed in myself. I really do feel like I wasted 2 years. It's not that I felt college was the waste of time, I just wasted it. I never did my best, I always told myself I'd make the effort next time. I never lived up to potential I know I have. I never did anything how I knew I could do it.
I told myself for the FMP I'd REALLY try... and I felt like I did. But no,.. I'm so dissapointed in myself. You should see everyone else's work. It's truly amazing,.. and just makes me feel so guilty about how I let myself down. I don't want people to see it and think that that's my talent at it's fullest. I can do so much better.
I'm and idiot.
Don't waste anything else Sam.
I really like this new layout on SG, it's a bit shocking actually.. I've never liked change, but I think it's really fitting. Cute and Cool. Just like SGs should be.
I miss my Twin. She didn't come see me at work like she said. Although technically she said she'd 'drop off my emo belt', but I was living in hope that she'd show up.
Edd sold Fista yesterday I think. Fista is his car by the way. She's a silver 3 door fiesta encore. And I love her. I couldn't bare to see him get rid of her so I was going to take her on.. even though I don't want a car due to lack of funds and 'drive' to pass my test. Now she has been sold.. for 200. Even though he paid 100 for her in the first place. She has no MOT or TAX and has 300 worth of repairs needed doing, and no rear windscreen. I think Graham was screwed out of some money there.
Anyway, signing off.
xx
...or so they say.
Yesterday I finished putting up my show for college, it's all over. I can now do whatever I want when I want now. There are so few constrainsts on me from now on, it's feels amazing. It's a strange, it's like a mix of finally feeling like an adult and like being a kid again (on summer holiday).
College. Im so so dissapointed in myself. I really do feel like I wasted 2 years. It's not that I felt college was the waste of time, I just wasted it. I never did my best, I always told myself I'd make the effort next time. I never lived up to potential I know I have. I never did anything how I knew I could do it.
I told myself for the FMP I'd REALLY try... and I felt like I did. But no,.. I'm so dissapointed in myself. You should see everyone else's work. It's truly amazing,.. and just makes me feel so guilty about how I let myself down. I don't want people to see it and think that that's my talent at it's fullest. I can do so much better.
I'm and idiot.
Don't waste anything else Sam.
I really like this new layout on SG, it's a bit shocking actually.. I've never liked change, but I think it's really fitting. Cute and Cool. Just like SGs should be.
I miss my Twin. She didn't come see me at work like she said. Although technically she said she'd 'drop off my emo belt', but I was living in hope that she'd show up.
Edd sold Fista yesterday I think. Fista is his car by the way. She's a silver 3 door fiesta encore. And I love her. I couldn't bare to see him get rid of her so I was going to take her on.. even though I don't want a car due to lack of funds and 'drive' to pass my test. Now she has been sold.. for 200. Even though he paid 100 for her in the first place. She has no MOT or TAX and has 300 worth of repairs needed doing, and no rear windscreen. I think Graham was screwed out of some money there.
Anyway, signing off.
xx