ivarr

that sucks

I know I'm going to be fine eventually. I know things are changing. I just don't know how they are going to chnge or what i am supposed to do. Usually when this kind of thing happens I know why I'm feeling shitty, either because of a breakup, or job related stress, or family issues, I usually know. This time I don't. I don't know if it's all these things at once or maybe it's none of the above. As a side effect I'm pulling away from friends because I find myself getting irritated and I don't want to be mean to them. It's not that they did anything wrong, I just get annoyed for no reason. I'd rather they wonder where I went than have them all think I'm a jerk. I also don't want to have to try to hold it in or act like nothing bothers me.

So I guess, I know I'm going through change. I'm finishing up a phase of my life and need to move on to the next, but so far I can't make any changes. I've reached a stalemate.