I had a lot of fun tonight. I went with my friend with my friend "swagger" to the local bar and hung out with some friends. I saw a bunch of people I hadn't seen in a while....a bunch I had...and just was able to chill. I was sober but it was fun.

Before we went to the bar we stopped by the group home and dropped off a mix cd I made for my little brother and I checked out the place my brother was staying in.

AND before that I chilled with a girlfriend...went to Bevmo and bought some beer and shit. Went to trader Joes ...ran into some friends....blah blah...not too thrilling.....but glad to see her....

hmmmm...backwards....

I also had a psychiatrist appointment....Nothing remarkably new there....I think I have been doing slightly better without you know who in my life....but i'm still not perfect(but never will be)sidenote:I am lonelyand having problems with my self esteem regarding self image.

I started filling out the paperwork for the jobs that officially let me know I was HIRED to be a sub for the day school. I was thrilled and still am. Man am I glad to finally have a job lined up.

NEXT STOP looking at an apartment tomorrow about 5 minutes from my school and close to my job. Price is steep...but we will see if I can swing it.

life is crazy...but i think I'm getting my own life back. It is MINE now. Fuck man...I needed this...seriously.

i hope to keep some positivity