My brother ran away from the group home today. Good lord how much drama is in my life. I feel horrible. He is totally fucking himself over. I feel for him I really do...but a lot of the stuff he has been doing lately has been out of character. I am so worried about him. man am i worried.

I want to help & i DON'T WANT TO BE SELFISH AT ALL....but i need to move really soon....get a good job....lose weight....kick this thyroid shit in the ass....deal with this crippling depression...get rid of all my patio furniture....take summer classes....and so on and so forth. BOY AM I OVERWHELMED. and alone....HE MUST FEEL ALONE. And ya know? i've been here for him over and over again. I can't keep doing this. I don't know what to do. I'm spreading myself too thin. AND i'm being way to honest in my SG entries. oh well....i don't like sugarcoating crap.....i'm not much for sweets.

And I know I'm no fun lately online or whatever.. honestly...would you be fun if you were me? maybe i'm a drama queen. whatever sorry guys