WILL THIS SHIT EVER END? I SWEAR TO GOD. THIS SHIT IS REALLY FUCKING GETTING ON MY FUCKING NERVES....I'M TRYING SO HARD TO HOLD ON. MY LANDLORD(S) ARE ASSHOLES. AND I AM POOR AS SHIT. I AM A NICE PERSON WITH A LOT TO OFFER...IF THIS SHIT DON'T STOP...I SWEAR...I WILL NOT PUT UP WITH IT MUCH LONGER. I DESERVE RESPECT. I DESERVE TO BE SPOKEN TO LIKE A HUMAN BEING. FUCK RICH FUCKERS WHO TREAT OTHERS LIKE DIRT. I SWEAR...I WANT TO RIP THEIR HEADS OFF AND ROAST THEM AND SERVE THEM ON A SILVER PLATTER TO THEIR SNOOTY CHILDREN (actually- their kids are cool- 
but- that's not the point) I HATE BEING TREATED LIKE I AM NOT WORTHY OF WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS. I HAVE LIVED QUITE A LIFE- AND IT'S NOT EVEN OVER YET- SO FUCK EM.
OK...SO...I saw my bro today in the hospital...He's on Prozac now. He seems (to the naked eye) to be better. BUT, I can tell he was nervous, angry and sad inside. He was making jokes and putting an act on...He wants out...and a cig...BIG TIME...anyways...It made me sad...we'll see what happens...i'm burnt out...i've had a crazy day...i don't feel like talking about it anymore
I had to borrow money today and it was so hard to ask...i'm still waiting on the job...they have 4 positions available and are still interviewing. I have no idea if i will be hired.
I ran out of gas and cried because I just can't handle all of this stress. I have no money...no job and i'm so used to being on top of everything...It's just not me...and school is out...so I feel useless! FUCK!
OH...and my 13 year old brother bought me a pass to Great America because he wanted to show me "how proud of me he was"...He is the sweetest kid in the whole world...I swear....I could never ask for a better bunch of bros.
I guess that means he needs a ride to great america this weekend 
ok...so much more going on... too much...later though...love you all
PS- it really hurts me when i think someone is my close friend and they don't show any interest in me or my life whatsoever...
...It seems I care a lot more for and about people than other people do about and for me
but- that's not the point) I HATE BEING TREATED LIKE I AM NOT WORTHY OF WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS. I HAVE LIVED QUITE A LIFE- AND IT'S NOT EVEN OVER YET- SO FUCK EM.
OK...SO...I saw my bro today in the hospital...He's on Prozac now. He seems (to the naked eye) to be better. BUT, I can tell he was nervous, angry and sad inside. He was making jokes and putting an act on...He wants out...and a cig...BIG TIME...anyways...It made me sad...we'll see what happens...i'm burnt out...i've had a crazy day...i don't feel like talking about it anymore
I had to borrow money today and it was so hard to ask...i'm still waiting on the job...they have 4 positions available and are still interviewing. I have no idea if i will be hired.
I ran out of gas and cried because I just can't handle all of this stress. I have no money...no job and i'm so used to being on top of everything...It's just not me...and school is out...so I feel useless! FUCK!
OH...and my 13 year old brother bought me a pass to Great America because he wanted to show me "how proud of me he was"...He is the sweetest kid in the whole world...I swear....I could never ask for a better bunch of bros.
I guess that means he needs a ride to great america this weekend
ok...so much more going on... too much...later though...love you all
PS- it really hurts me when i think someone is my close friend and they don't show any interest in me or my life whatsoever...
...It seems I care a lot more for and about people than other people do about and for me VIEW 13 of 13 COMMENTS
Your bro sounds cool.. here is some
*huuuugs*