itsy

dreams are strange. especially mine. went with a friend today to Borders to access dream interpreter books. my most common dreams (which strangely are usually nightmares) consist of: giant insects (mostly beetles and spiders), tornadoes, the apocolypse, my teeth being lose and falling out, falling, being chased (in which if i'm caught i'll be killed)... and those are the most common. very rarely sometimes it switches over to monsters and zombies.

pretty much.... it all means that i feel insecure and that i don't have control of my life, that something is bothering me, bad things needing to be resolved, etc. things of that nature. also alot of sexual frustration explanations popped up. well YES I AM. though i never thought giant bugs would equal me needing to fuck.

funny things i found explanations for: dreaming of cul-de-sacs, raincoats, your cousin and toad stools. oh. and varnish and veneer. ahahahahahahaha. those made me giggle.

i think the crush has thrown me in the friend zone. there's one other person i'm interested, but i'm too scared to persue it because i'm not sure i can take one more rejection and exile into the friend zone. i need makeout time dammit.

i start stripping at a new club tomorrow. i'm excited. the managers seem more competent and don't put up with dirty girl crap. hopefully i won't have to deal with the girls acting like children.

ok. back to my life of invader zim and frosted animal cookies.