itsy

that other blog was thuroughly depressing, so i'm getting rid of it.


i was looking through older sets.... super nostalgic for me! just remembering first sets i saw on this site and how inspired i was to be a part of it. Mary, Shera, Katie, Desdemonia, Evette, Zui, Bee were some of my absolute faves (still are!) and blew me away. Dot, Trixie, Yin and Campbell were faves as well. i remember thinking "damn these girls are effing hot, and they're amazing!"

to go pink, and be roped into the same sisterhood as those mentioned above, and all the other beautiful SG's STILL blows me away. it still gives me giggles to talk about and i want to be able to meet everybody i've talked to on here. (you've all been such incredible sweethearts - seriously! thank you! )

lately... i've felt more unlike myself than i have in a long ass time. i feel... effing hot. like "look at me" hot. i prance in my undies alone and pose in front of mirrors. i notice the way guys look at me. (the way girls look at me too... which is either awesome or "geez, she just cursed me") and i like it. it's like finally blooming, or opening up your eyes or something. not that i need a sexual revolution... that came a long time ago. i guess it's an awakening to a greater self awareness. (not that i'm conceited or anything!!! please don't think that.) it's hard to explain. but i'm thuroughly enjoying myself.

so i'm getting all my hair cut off again. i like it that way. fuck the long haired stereotype. and i'm doing what i want. i'm leaving IL and i'm going to see what else is out there. maybe i'll come back to chicago (i more than likely will), but for right now, i need something else. and i want to be 2 steps ahead of whatever that is.