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Wednesday Apr 02, 2003

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Ok...RANDOM. Typically blown off last night but it was fine. I just watched TV. BUT....

Yesterday at work, a friend emailed me this creepy/cool Google trick to find people online. Now, I was skeptical but tried it and it WORKED. So I tried looking up an old girlfriend of mine. I litererally lost touch with her 12 years ago when she became a lesbian. She broke my heart. Not that I was upset with WHY she left...she was gay....I didn't have the right parts. But she was my first love. It hurt.

So I try the google trick and holy shit, I found her. I emailed her and not only did she email me back last night, she called me this morning and we talked for over an hour. She was really happy I found her as she told me she felt she could never look for me because she knew she hurt me badly.

Turns out she is married (unhappily) and in New Mexico. It was really great to talk to her. After so much pain, it was like, "Time heals all wounds." Turns out she wasn't a lesbian after all. I asked her, "How did you know you were not gay after living that life for 5 years?"

She said, "I just really needed to get fucked."

It's more complex than that but...you gotta love a woman who is that honest. I have no idea if we will ever talk again but it was nice and we exchanged numbers.

PS...good answers with the kinky things I asked about yesterday.
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cherryb0mb:
NY... freezing rain. i think i'm coming down with the flu or something to add to my coldness... frown

i broke up with him because of his irresponsibility, for one. we are super close, but i have to help him with everything and remind him to get a job, go do this and that- everyday. and we used to be very open with each other and communicate, but he's changed, and it's like i'm talking to a wall. he needs to grow up.


so when do we get to see a picture of you?
Apr 4, 2003
cherryb0mb:
my ex is in his early 20's, yes... but enough about him, anyway. i don't know what i want right now, (re: the girlfriend thing) i am forever indecisive. i think i'm just going to abstain from relationships and sex for a little while and focus on other things.

i'm not IN the city, actually. unfortuneately. i am stuck in a little town hours away surrounded by close-minded folk and i can't wait to get out of here. i want to be totally stable when that time comes though.
Apr 4, 2003

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