Too much time on my hands is apparently not a good thing. I'm utterly bored and as fucking restless as ever.

I can't think of anything good at the moment and I've stared at the computer screen for far too many hours. My side of this open relationship has met with, well, negative success. If nothing else I'm more frustrated lately than I've been in a very long time. I've always been horrible with women, and now she has a current boyfriend (among a long string of guys over the last year) while on the occassion I do try to step out and even just talk to someone, I'm met with calls of "scumbag" and etc, because I couldn't possibly be a good guy if I'm in a relationship and looking to date others. That fact pisses me off to no end.

However I did get to talk to one of my crushes I've had for a while again recently. She's apparently become recently single again, which could lead to good things if she wasn't 4 hours away and I constantly working or needed around the house. I'd love to take a nice weekend up to Atlanta, take her out for a great night on the town and move on from there. My schedule won't allow it though. She's such a sweet and beautiful young lady though, and I think if we got that chance to go out, it would help things for all involved parties.

Whelp, let's see if I can post again before the next 6 months or so.