ithras

So training has started. Somehow I've found myself getting ready to start the Georgia Police Academy down here in Savannah next week. It's been so long but seems like a heartbeat since I nervously turned in that application back in June. I'm one of 26 or so people out of over 180 that were at the first exam. I really can't believe I've made it this far, and it's bringing out every emotion I've concieved lately. Fear, nervousness, ecstaticness, happiness, sadness...pretty much everything under the sun. But when I'm talking to my classmates that will be going into the academy with me...my heart just swells with pride and I know I'm making the right decision.

Growing up I've always wanted to be something creative. Architect, Video Game Designer, Table Top Game Designer. I have notebooks and notebooks of just random ideas I get that I start to flesh out. I make characters, I make storylines, and I love it. I could just spend my life writing if only it paid the bills. But since I have no real college to speak of, I'm considered lower than so many people. It doesn't matter that I can learn anything I'm taught, and it doesn't matter that I have a higher work ethic than the majority of people. That lack of a 30k-100k+ piece of paper tells the working world to not give me a chance.

Kind of rambling now but it's ok, helps me vent some frustrations I guess. Overall though, despite the lack of where I want to be at, I'm happier now than I have ever been in my life.