itchium

This is going to be the sole words of a drunken rant of mine. Forgive me if i don't spell words right cause right now i don't really care what so ever.

I've always heard about love and the joys and jollies it brings.. i've seen love only from afar and have never come to see what love is. No matter where i go and what i do it's always the same with what happens. I think i'm finally given up here. Given up on it all as a matter of fact. With half a bottle of vodka and some jack in my system i think i'm coming to my conculsion here. For over 20 years all i've now is sollitude. I've i've known is how to live by myself. The drunken rant i'm coming to is that no matter what, I will know no love. Funny how i've spent so much time trying when all i end up with is myself

I thin k i have the worse luck known in this diminsion. The girl i liked at the time, right now or should it be past tense? anyways i was goin g to tell her i liked her and all but good thing i didn't hey!!! Good thing i walked right i nto the fucking room to see them sucking each others face off. They didn't see me. I slipt in and out with out them ever really knowning. How is it that when ever i try to find love it runs in the other direction. To top the pie with all this i've said that i had events happening sround me right. well in the next couple of months i'm going to be getting ready for my next phase of traaining.... deployment. I really don't care one way or the other about going. All that i do care about is dead to me i guess. In my drunken ramble all i can ever find is myself. well with this really long rant i bid ya'll adieu