isolation

hmmm... could you provide me some manly insight in regaurds to my journal post for today?

yeah... so I think I shook "Mr. Chill Leave" up a bit yesterday... but it's cool- he needed it. After our picture sharing... I emailed him and told him I thought maybe we needed a break from seeing one another- since he said he thought things were getting serious again... I told him I was just having fun- but I can't continue to see him if he is feeling that it is getting serious... So he emails me back and says that he just wanted to make sure we werel on the same page and that he is having fun and still wants to see me... I read it- but didn't respond. Then he texts me and says... "everything is still cool... I wrote you back... and I love the pics." I text back.. "Thanx" And never wrote back to his email or text him again.... So this morning I wrote back- although he has yet to read it and said- "obligation makes me feel suffocated and I like breathing... we are on the same page and always have been... I am having fun and still would like to see you also... so let me know when we can get together."

really... I don't know if I want a relationship with him either... but it's fun for now. I am extremely competative... so it's important for me to feel as if I am still on top... I think I am regaining my footing. haha But this can't last forever- because ultimately- I'd like to have something real in my life... ahh- we'll see what happens next, I guess.

Thanks for the manly advice- hahaha and for the admiration of my saucy pictures... haha (actually- those are the mild ones!)