okay - so, the tiny house people haven't called us back yet and i'm kinda getting anxious that maybe we won't get it after all. i know it's the weekend but i wish they'd called friday. and i know that only gave them one day to call us about it, since we called them thursday. i'm probably just over-worrying though. we only called two other places and both those didn't allow pets.

sigh. i'm set and determined on the tiny house. if they don't call me monday to set something up, i'll call them back and harass them instead.

the guilt has fully set in now and i feel awful about this whole thing. i couldn't sleep last night thinking about it. and i know she's upset but hiding a lot of it. the whole timing of this is so bad for all of us, but she's the one who gets more upset about stuff like that.

i never meant for this to happen. i never wanted this to happen. i wanted this to work out. now i just want things to go back to how they were, where we were all friends and everyone was happy and nobody was stepping on everyone else's toes. but i have a feeling she secretly hates us now.

i need a cigarette.