THIS IS A LONG PASSAGE SO FOR ALL YOU SHALLOW TYPES WHO ARE JUST INTO PICTURES THIS WILL NOT BE FOR YOU AND BESIDES IT DEALS WITH DEEP IDEAS ABOUT THE ACTIONS OF HOW WE PRECEIVE LOVE THROUGH OUR ACTIONS, THOUGHTS, AND FEELINGS.
What makes a person beautiful? We seem to first judge the beauty (as we as individuals understand beauty to be) of a person by the chemical reaction that takes place in our bodies within the first slpit second that our eyes have focused apon what our minds preceive as beautiful. I know that not everyone sees beauty with the same preception. One could ask what about a blind person? Their preception of beauty is known through touch, sound and smell. What I am asking is not an absolute, because I know that there are many different senarios for which a person can throw at me. My questions are as I see and understand the beauty of the people around me. What if you were to peel away that beauty you are so taken by? What would you see then? Are they just a broken soul who puts on a front by hiding behind their beauty with their tools of deception, lies, and fake forced smiles? It is as if we all went to a masquarde party but it is those who are self aware of their broken state who went to this masquarde just as we are, broken and lost.
This is not an absolute view of beautiful people but I am finding that with people that the are more seemingly physically beautiful they are, the more they truly seem fucken broken deep inside, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Their twisted preception of how to truly love someone else besides themselves is so warped by their self-will. The communication link between their heart and mind has been severely severed. They are a prisoner trapped deep within their severed mind. They have lost their ability to know what it is that their heart is truly feeling when in a relationship.
I am aware that not every beautiful person is broken soul. There are many physically beauttiful people out there whose souls are in tact, full of life, passion, and love. They have grown up in life and have the ability to love spiritually, not religiously, people that are in their lives without having to deal with the burden of a raging angry beast whose goal is truly destroying every relationship through self destruction. They have this uncanny ability to shed themselves of self-will by letting go of the out come and truly givie from their soul. It is It is the beautiful innocence of a person whose soul has not been broken who can truly give a the gift of unselfish love to someone and let go of the outcome of that gift.
Most people in todays society only give back with specific motivation and outcome in mind. Their gift is to them is unknowingly conditional and by you excepting this gift you are now but, unknowingly indebted to them. And if you are ever to forget about thier conditional gift, I promise you, that if there is ever a time this person feels you are not meeting thier needs in any form and you reach their triggering point you will be punched with the verbal reminder of their great sacrfices. Having their preceived unconditional love betrayed by you, they now begin to try regaining control of their out of control emotions by infecting the once seemingly perfect relationship through codependant behaviors. It is only now that you will get to see the darker side of a person's self-will and their warped preception of their love that they have for you. At first we think to ourselves, "who is this person?". Then we as fast as the red flags pop up we begin to dismiss them through rationaliztion. We begin to enable their self-will by making excuses for their controlling behaviors. Really, who would want to fail another relationship after investion so much of themselves yet again in a long line of failed relationships? This is where we come to the razors edge of insanity. The insanity is that we continue to do the same action over and over again but expecting a diferent result each and everytime.. We find ourselves once again falling in the pit of dispair clawing at the walls doing the same insane shit over again. Keeping that childhood dream alive by thinking we have finally found that one beautiful person who can make us whole. We disregaurd everyones projections of our failed relationships to their inability to see the love we feel in our hearts. We have become blinded by the fear of being alone once again in our life. We will suffer through the wrath of countless hours of mental abuse, emotional abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse, and even their acts of sexual betrayal with another person all so that we can seemingly keep breathing life into an already dead relationship.
How does one truly begin to shed themselves of this burden of self-will? What is self-will? We must first find understanding in the definition of self-will. Self-will leads us to make decisions based on manipulationn, ego, lust, or false pride. If we are truly looking to wipe out our own self-will we must turn our focus inward allowing us to see for the first time just how broken our souls are. Knowing this we can begin to applying the new found knowledge throughout our life.
TO BE CONTINUED...
What makes a person beautiful? We seem to first judge the beauty (as we as individuals understand beauty to be) of a person by the chemical reaction that takes place in our bodies within the first slpit second that our eyes have focused apon what our minds preceive as beautiful. I know that not everyone sees beauty with the same preception. One could ask what about a blind person? Their preception of beauty is known through touch, sound and smell. What I am asking is not an absolute, because I know that there are many different senarios for which a person can throw at me. My questions are as I see and understand the beauty of the people around me. What if you were to peel away that beauty you are so taken by? What would you see then? Are they just a broken soul who puts on a front by hiding behind their beauty with their tools of deception, lies, and fake forced smiles? It is as if we all went to a masquarde party but it is those who are self aware of their broken state who went to this masquarde just as we are, broken and lost.
This is not an absolute view of beautiful people but I am finding that with people that the are more seemingly physically beautiful they are, the more they truly seem fucken broken deep inside, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Their twisted preception of how to truly love someone else besides themselves is so warped by their self-will. The communication link between their heart and mind has been severely severed. They are a prisoner trapped deep within their severed mind. They have lost their ability to know what it is that their heart is truly feeling when in a relationship.
I am aware that not every beautiful person is broken soul. There are many physically beauttiful people out there whose souls are in tact, full of life, passion, and love. They have grown up in life and have the ability to love spiritually, not religiously, people that are in their lives without having to deal with the burden of a raging angry beast whose goal is truly destroying every relationship through self destruction. They have this uncanny ability to shed themselves of self-will by letting go of the out come and truly givie from their soul. It is It is the beautiful innocence of a person whose soul has not been broken who can truly give a the gift of unselfish love to someone and let go of the outcome of that gift.
Most people in todays society only give back with specific motivation and outcome in mind. Their gift is to them is unknowingly conditional and by you excepting this gift you are now but, unknowingly indebted to them. And if you are ever to forget about thier conditional gift, I promise you, that if there is ever a time this person feels you are not meeting thier needs in any form and you reach their triggering point you will be punched with the verbal reminder of their great sacrfices. Having their preceived unconditional love betrayed by you, they now begin to try regaining control of their out of control emotions by infecting the once seemingly perfect relationship through codependant behaviors. It is only now that you will get to see the darker side of a person's self-will and their warped preception of their love that they have for you. At first we think to ourselves, "who is this person?". Then we as fast as the red flags pop up we begin to dismiss them through rationaliztion. We begin to enable their self-will by making excuses for their controlling behaviors. Really, who would want to fail another relationship after investion so much of themselves yet again in a long line of failed relationships? This is where we come to the razors edge of insanity. The insanity is that we continue to do the same action over and over again but expecting a diferent result each and everytime.. We find ourselves once again falling in the pit of dispair clawing at the walls doing the same insane shit over again. Keeping that childhood dream alive by thinking we have finally found that one beautiful person who can make us whole. We disregaurd everyones projections of our failed relationships to their inability to see the love we feel in our hearts. We have become blinded by the fear of being alone once again in our life. We will suffer through the wrath of countless hours of mental abuse, emotional abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse, and even their acts of sexual betrayal with another person all so that we can seemingly keep breathing life into an already dead relationship.
How does one truly begin to shed themselves of this burden of self-will? What is self-will? We must first find understanding in the definition of self-will. Self-will leads us to make decisions based on manipulationn, ego, lust, or false pride. If we are truly looking to wipe out our own self-will we must turn our focus inward allowing us to see for the first time just how broken our souls are. Knowing this we can begin to applying the new found knowledge throughout our life.
TO BE CONTINUED...
niobe:
This was a very good blog.