There are times when even my condemnable rational mind sheds its iron hard outer shell and rolls in the mud and slop of what ifs, if onlys, and maybes. These are times when I open and flow creatively. They also tend to follow swiftly behind my lows. And they are joined by lack of sleep. I simply cannot sleep of late. I am up until...
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Well, so far this has been quite the week for amazing lows and crazy highs. I just wish the highs had it.
First, I have the most amazing friends, and I love them all with everything I have (soulsetfire I'm looking YOUR direction). I wouldn't be anything without them, nor would I be anywhere. So thank you. Even the Beard showed his rare soft...
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First, I have the most amazing friends, and I love them all with everything I have (soulsetfire I'm looking YOUR direction). I wouldn't be anything without them, nor would I be anywhere. So thank you. Even the Beard showed his rare soft...
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soulsetfire:
<3
And I swear to fucking PELOR that the next time I see that bulky waste of fucking HUMANITY I will fucking destroy her. EVERY.LAST.INCH. She has fucking done it. I AM PISSED. No one and I fucking mean NO ONE will treat you like that. I'll fucking spat her nasty blackened soul out and use to fucking scrape my boots with. Give her my number, will you lamb? So I can have a chat with her?
And I swear to fucking PELOR that the next time I see that bulky waste of fucking HUMANITY I will fucking destroy her. EVERY.LAST.INCH. She has fucking done it. I AM PISSED. No one and I fucking mean NO ONE will treat you like that. I'll fucking spat her nasty blackened soul out and use to fucking scrape my boots with. Give her my number, will you lamb? So I can have a chat with her?
nobodyhere:
So thankful for angry music. Though not in the same style, i wonder where i would be without Depeche mode.
But hey, school is a positive step.
That's weird, i never thought i'd be saying that ever.
But hey, school is a positive step.
That's weird, i never thought i'd be saying that ever.
Well now that was an interesting weekend. Learned a few things I did. For one, my youngest sister can chug half a bottle of Crown Royal. I was impressed to say the least. Also I learned that at least one of my friends is violently against dudes kissing other dudes. His reaction amused me pretty good.
Father's day was .... quiet. Can't ask for much...
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Father's day was .... quiet. Can't ask for much...
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soulsetfire:
I am the debil. The proof is on my receipt from Lalo's, which I will be keeping in my wallet to remind me.
And to be fair, darling one, you microwaved Dharma BEFORE you met me.
PS - Little Sister's 21st Birthday Weekend just so happens to fall on a weekend without the kidlets. And Queen FuckHead will be there in RARE FORM.
Be afraid, heart of mine, be afraid for your very soul.
And to be fair, darling one, you microwaved Dharma BEFORE you met me.
PS - Little Sister's 21st Birthday Weekend just so happens to fall on a weekend without the kidlets. And Queen FuckHead will be there in RARE FORM.
Be afraid, heart of mine, be afraid for your very soul.
I'm really a horrible employee. I called off again, once more playing hookey to hang out with the fam for a bit and to play around on the computer all day. Eight more weeks to go until I'm in school, wonder if I'll make it? 
I'm slightly nervous I'll admit, as to how I'm going to pay for school. I mean I'm sure in the...
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I'm slightly nervous I'll admit, as to how I'm going to pay for school. I mean I'm sure in the...
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nobodyhere:
A reasonable list there. Not like any of that stuff is too obscure or anything.
Did you get the SG Beauty redefined book? Chanel has an amazing Star Wars tattoo. Don't know much else about her. Perhaps you should investigate further...
Good luck at work.
Did you get the SG Beauty redefined book? Chanel has an amazing Star Wars tattoo. Don't know much else about her. Perhaps you should investigate further...
Good luck at work.
soulsetfire:
Are you sure they're orange? 
SO Dani will be getting married to that guy Saturday. Then she'll be off to Italy for a month. I never did have a talk with her, like I should have I mean. I ultimately deemed it unfair to her. She didn't need that on top of all the stress from the wedding going on. So I pretty much did the only thing I could....
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nobodyhere:
You made a very difficult choice there, man. And you should be applauded.
The future is never set in stone though, i don't believe, so stay positive. Who knows what life will throw at us next?
Have a great weekend.
The future is never set in stone though, i don't believe, so stay positive. Who knows what life will throw at us next?
Have a great weekend.
soulsetfire:
Fuck her. Fuck her big cunty mouth. And fuck her selfishness. I have a lot more things to say about her, but they're all worse than the aforementioned and definitely not my place to say.
Ex's make good speed bumps. She'd make a good speed mountain.
And you'll do fucking amazing in school. AMAZING. You are seriously, with the exception of Christoffer (and that's only because I'm convinced that he's more human than human [ZOMG I QUOTED THE ZOMBIE!!!!]) that you are the most intelligent person I know. What you can hold in your memory is definitely more than I will ever learn in a lifetime. Could be the ADD, could be the copious amounts of drugs previous taken, could be the two satan spawn that leach the sanity from my brain... who knows?!
I digress. You are the shit. You will continue to be the shit forever and ever. Amen. Queen FuckHead has spoken.
Ex's make good speed bumps. She'd make a good speed mountain.
And you'll do fucking amazing in school. AMAZING. You are seriously, with the exception of Christoffer (and that's only because I'm convinced that he's more human than human [ZOMG I QUOTED THE ZOMBIE!!!!]) that you are the most intelligent person I know. What you can hold in your memory is definitely more than I will ever learn in a lifetime. Could be the ADD, could be the copious amounts of drugs previous taken, could be the two satan spawn that leach the sanity from my brain... who knows?!
I digress. You are the shit. You will continue to be the shit forever and ever. Amen. Queen FuckHead has spoken.
Just got back from the college. And I'm officially signed up for classes. I'm a little bit excited about this. And now I'm antsy I have to wait until August to go. I haven't been in school in 8 years, wow but this is long overdue. I just wish my grandma was still around to see me finally going back to school. I'm totally doing...
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nobodyhere:
Absolutely. Damn, you said it all better than me!
2009 has thrown up some amazing things. I only wish they gave us warning first!
Good luck with school, and Dani.
2009 has thrown up some amazing things. I only wish they gave us warning first!
Good luck with school, and Dani.
soulsetfire:
Maybe we can have a study date
Best of luck with Dani my dear
Best of luck with Dani my dear
She was drunk. She was talking. She said things. Interesting night to say the least. I mean, do I simply brush off the things she said as drunken nonsense? She called me Miah for crying out loud. There's a connotation to that endearment. She wants me to come rescue her, kidnap her and take her away from the whole wedding thing.
I would too, if...
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nobodyhere:
Well, life does throw up some situations.
I'm not too sure what to say. After all, only you know if she is worth all of this.
I do think you owe it to yourself to at least talk to her before the weekend, there is obvoiusly stuff that needs to be cleared up.
Sending my best wishes for that and of course the test (if i'm not too late).
I'm not too sure what to say. After all, only you know if she is worth all of this.
I do think you owe it to yourself to at least talk to her before the weekend, there is obvoiusly stuff that needs to be cleared up.
Sending my best wishes for that and of course the test (if i'm not too late).
For a moment if I might be allowed I'd love to speak a bit in the hypothetical. Or at least the hyper contextual, so as to save myself some dignity or protect the identities of the innocent. Or something. I don't know. Now that I think about it if I were really protecting myself from anything I might not have mentioned that I was attempting...
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nobodyhere:
I hear that. And i still don't understand how self doubt remains even when other things in life seem to change.
I don't know, i sort of believe that we grow stronger and more focused to be able to grab the next opportunity
that may arise. But then, i can't back that statement up right now.
Still, one day i expect to see photos from a Jedi wedding right here. No ewok's though.
I don't know, i sort of believe that we grow stronger and more focused to be able to grab the next opportunity
that may arise. But then, i can't back that statement up right now.
Still, one day i expect to see photos from a Jedi wedding right here. No ewok's though.
soulsetfire:
You know I understand this to the very core of my being.....
So its freaking June and the weather outside is downright almost chilly. What's that about?
I played hookie from work today, didn't much feel like going.
I've been to the college place, meet an admissions person and talked about my major (computer programming) and I need to take some test or something and then I can sign up for classes. Can this really be happening?...
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I played hookie from work today, didn't much feel like going.
I've been to the college place, meet an admissions person and talked about my major (computer programming) and I need to take some test or something and then I can sign up for classes. Can this really be happening?...
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nobodyhere:
Yeah i remember a warm day that time.... As for Captain Kirk, well why settle for less?
Thanks for your comments, at this stage i'm really not convinced that i achieved anything with those particular words. Shit, i really hate doubt. And fear.
Good luck at the college, sure you'll ace that pesky test!
Thanks for your comments, at this stage i'm really not convinced that i achieved anything with those particular words. Shit, i really hate doubt. And fear.
Good luck at the college, sure you'll ace that pesky test!
soulsetfire:
I <3 your oh face.
SO I've done this back to work thing for two weeks now. And I gotta say, still not a fan of that place.
I've found myself fretting and losing sleep because of it. Tossing and turning in the early morning hours before sitting up in a panic, thinking that soon I should get up and get ready to work. As I stare at the date...
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I've found myself fretting and losing sleep because of it. Tossing and turning in the early morning hours before sitting up in a panic, thinking that soon I should get up and get ready to work. As I stare at the date...
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soulsetfire:
You shouldn't loathe him. I'm quite fond, actually. And as far as The Mountain That Walks... want me to talk to her? I know the bitch can't catch me.
nobodyhere:
Good luck if you do some pic's. Though shit, being in front of a camera is still one of life's more awkward things to me. The answer to your question is Niobe. Of course, now i realise i must do something that i have never managed before. Not fuck up.
Hope your week is going well so far, the weather's been ridiculous yeah?
Hope your week is going well so far, the weather's been ridiculous yeah?
Is it any wonder we are struggling to sleep these days?
Hopefully school will be the positive you need. if you can enjoy that and everyday life again unlike in your previous job, then hopefully it will lay the groundwork for more good things to follow.