ironmog

I miss her. Dreadfully so. But just knowing she loves me, she thinks about me and misses me just as much, the storm can be weathered just that much easier. I fell asleep thinking about her, and for the I-don't-know-how-many-days-in-a-row time I woke up thinking about her. I smiled at the morning and simply thought one word: "Dani".

I'm so in love its retarded.

She called me yesterday. The first time ever that we've actually talked on the phone. Why were we both so nervous about it? The phone call somehow made it all more real, we could no longer hide behind "if onlys". This is it, we're connecting and talking and loving and falling together. For real.

Its crazy.

Its complicated.

Its hard.

But I don't care. At all. I want to fall asleep with her in my arms. I want to spend forever getting to know her better.

If I disappear, I've run away to Ireland to live happily ever after with her.

Even though she isn't here, I've not been this happy in a long time. Its good to remember this. Maybe I can leave Jay behind now. Jeremiah is such a better person inside and out.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, all that awesome good holiday spirit jazz to everyone.

I'm going to go be euphoric some more on this here cloud 9.

-JC